On Dentists

I feel sting now. My back tooth hurt. Yesterday doctor cut my gum. At that times I didn't feel pain because he anaesthesia. My gum is swell and sting. So I call cousin in the morning. She say it is okay. Yesterday one tooth is crown gold and the other just remain treatment. Some my teeth is rotten. But it is discount 20%. After treatment no go there more.

Crazy.

What Now

What will today be
Sleepy heads
Tumble weeds
Both of us
We will see
Smoke
Ash
More of you
Or of me
I should
Wash it all
Off.

A Moment Like This

Lyrics by Ian ZafraMusic by Ian Zafra, Blair Kabahar, Benjie Fernandez

A moment like this
A moment at the height of bliss
A moment like this
A moment I would never miss

Close your eyes
And take this time to realize
You dwell in me as I dwell in you
Let this night be a part of you

A moment like this
Longing for that sinner's kiss
A moment like this
Can't get enough of this bliss

And you come like thunder
And you come like rain
You come in circles and you come in dreams
And you come in strangest times it seems

A moment like this
A moment at the height of bliss
A moment like this
A moment I would never miss

A moment like this
Longing for that sinner's kiss
A moment like this
Can't get enough of this bliss

On Korean Elections

I have no concern for government. I have no any information. Before vote they campaign, after election different. Before they kind but after election they do their selves. Even if anybody it is same thing. So I going to dentist. I have care three teeth one of them was crack.

Apathy anyone?

Solace

Besides recently acquiring the habit of smoking yet again I've concluded that I do wear myself out on purpose when something's bothering me. It seems that if I tire myself out enough I wouldn't think about what's bothering me too much. The exhaustion just leads me away from that. I like ending the day only with thoughts of how much I need to sleep. Just pass out and ignore everything.

2004

;)

Way Back When

What I do Part 1

If you have viewed my profile you would know that I am an online english tutor - to Koreans. For the sake of entertainment to those who drop by here and my co-workers, I would be posting conversations between students and teachers from time to time. As well as proof that in some instances the student gets cheated out of his money because of lack of quality control with some teachers. Included in our services is typing down wrong sentences and phrases of the students and send it to them supposedly with "corrected sentences". Like if a student says "I not like movie." We are supposed to type that along with a correction, ergo:

1. I not like movie.
-I don't like movies.

You get my drift? I'm not perfect but at least I don't let it get THIS bad:
3. Traffic because I got some traffic accident.
===>I was stocked in a traffic jam because of a car accident. ->this is supposed to be the "correction"

5. Telephone...
===>I think I cannot live without telephone because I usually chat with my friends.

4.Is pretty… (student was asked what kind of animal would she want to be)
====>If I am going to be animal I like to be a cat because cat is pretty and cute.

4.Yes... (student was asked where she would like to go for a vacation)
====>I want to go to the beach next vacation.

More to come.

K-Conversations Part 1

Student: You know tomorrow election.
H: Are you going to vote?
Student: You know I don't know.
H: Why not?
Student: I not like election. Nothing use.
H: Oh it's similar in the Philippines. Don't worry. They kill each other during elections.
Student: So better in Korea. No kill. It's good.
H: Good.

Too Far Gone

I think it's suffice to say you are stuck in a rut when you are afraid of the responsibilities that come with a situation, a person, a relationship, a thing, a commitment. What is it good for? How does it make you feel? Does it change you? Do you need it? What should I do? What are the choices?

I guess that's why for as long as I can remember I've always claimed that I hate change. It always brings about something that you least bargained for. And whatever it brings with it, it never fails to knock you off your ass - your high horse.

What The Bleep Do We Know?!

I.
If I change my mind will I change my choices? If I change my choices will my life change? Why can't I change? What am I addicted to? What will I lose that I'm chemically attached to and what person, place, thing, time or event that I'm chemically attached to that I don't want to lose because I may have to experience the chemical withdrawal from that?
Hence the human drama.

II.
The only way that I will ever be great to myself is not what I do to my body but what I do to my mind.

III.
So if we're consciously designing our destiny and if we're consciously from a spiritual standpoint throwing in with the idea that our thoughts can affect our reality or affect our life, cause reality equals life, then I have this little pact that I have when I create my day. I say, "I'm taking this time to create my day. Now if in fact the observer's watching me the whole time that I'm doing this and there is a spiritual aspect to myself, then show me a sign today that you paid attention to anyone of these things that I created and bring them in a way that I won't expect. So I'm as surprised at my ability to be able to experience these things and make it so that I have no doubt that it's come from you."

IV.
I am much more than I think I am. I can be much more even than that. I can influence my environment, the people. I can influence space itself. I can influence the future. I am resposible for all those things. I and the surround are not separate. They're part of one. I'm connected to it all. I am not alone.

You Get What You Deserve

School is for fools. I've been working hard for this and now it's here I'm scared shitless of handling everything - all at once. It was more difficult than I imagined. I was thinking of giving up one thing in my life that I've been prioritizing BUT ...

I'm not ready.